Our world is frozen solid and shrouded in mist. The early morning light is blue, mysterious, and beautiful in a melancholy sort of way. The fire blazes in the woodstove but still the cold seems to seep through the old stone walls of this house. It is a wondrously lovely but difficult time of year.
To keep the fire blazing takes energy. Mark wakes in the night to add wood, and in the morning there is a trip to the barn to fill the wood box. Drinking water for the sheep and chickens is frozen solid in the morning and must be thawed with boiling water from the kettle. The bird feeders must be filled several times each day, and there is hay to carry for the sheep.
Depression lurks in the corners of our minds and finding projects to pass the long winter darkness is a challenge. Soon the daffodils will begin to poke their heads up and the scent of spring will waft through the air but these are the difficult days.
I’ve been having fun painting the partition wall for the sleeping area in Tòti Bleu. Each morning I lit the small heater in my studio and as the day became brighter in the afternoon, I began to play with colors and gold leaf. It was fun! I didn’t criticize or judge. I didn’t have a plan. The wonderful part was how joyful it made me feel.
In the spring, we will install this wall, cutting the top curve to fit precisely to the curve of the roof. This is the side that faces the living area. Next week I will start on the other side. It will be much simpler.
As I painted, spirals appeared everywhere. Curious to learn about their significance, I looked on the internet. This is what I found:
The Spiral, which is the oldest symbol known to be used in spiritual practices, reflects the universal pattern of growth and evolution. The spiral represents the goddess, the womb, fertility and life force energy. Reflected in the natural world, the Spiral is found in human physiology, plants, minerals, animals, energy patterns, weather, growth and death. The Spiral is a sacred symbol that reminds us of our evolving journey in life. When used as a personal talisman, the Spiral helps consciousness to accept the turnings and changes of life as it evolves. The acceptance of change is one of the greatest freedoms a human can experience, putting consciousness in the present moment where the power of creation is condensed. On a larger scale, using this symbol assures all beings are reminded of their inward and outward evolution, a balanced and centred state of mind. On water, it carries the power to flow and change.
Through these winter moments, it feels reassuring that the journey to build Tòti continues, if only in a small way. With each step I discover something special, a small but precious tidbit of knowledge.